So today we had another doctor's appointment, and it was determined that nothing has changed. Which is not really good or bad, just the same. There is still no fluid being kept in, yet her heartbeat remains good.
I'm obviously not feeling so hot these days, on top of being tired all day I am extremely uncomfortable. Due to the fact that there is no comfy little sack for Kloe to move and roll about in, it is causing some minor pain. My tummy is really hard all the time and whenever she moves it's killer!
We meet with another specialist on Friday and have some more things done (I'm getting really used to being poked around, which is crazy cause I've never even been able to give blood before). There are many options we are being given trying to keep her healthy and hopefully inside me for as long as possible. It' all just a matter of whether or not these will work. I am still at VERY high risk for going into labor and infection, so we are monitored closely. We are staying hopeful that something will work, but also realistically knowing that there is slim chance that even if she stayed in a little bit longer she would most likely not be able to live breathing on her own.
We will share more as we know and try and keep everyone filled in as much as we are wanting to share at the moment.
Thank you for all the prayers and sweet comments from those friends and family we know and those we don't. They are a great encouragement for all three of us!
P.S. Conner is doing amazing! I feel like Mark and I are doing really great considering everything, but Conner is definitely the strongest. He very much gets whats going on for the moment and is very at peace with it. :)
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
So no new news really. Just wanted to let everyone know we have a doctors appointment on Wednesday morning, and we will find out more then. We are still praying for a miracle, knowing it could totally happen :)
I will post with some info sometime on Wednesday and let you all know the new info. Conner is will be going to Mark's Aunt's and Grandmother's house on Tuesday afternoon, and we will get him later on Wednesday. It will be nice to have a little alone time in the midst of all this, and plus he will get more one on one attention than he has been getting here lately. I know she has a bunch of super fun activities for them planned :)
Thanks for all the prayers everyone, keep em' up!
I will post with some info sometime on Wednesday and let you all know the new info. Conner is will be going to Mark's Aunt's and Grandmother's house on Tuesday afternoon, and we will get him later on Wednesday. It will be nice to have a little alone time in the midst of all this, and plus he will get more one on one attention than he has been getting here lately. I know she has a bunch of super fun activities for them planned :)
Thanks for all the prayers everyone, keep em' up!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Kloe Evelyn ~ Our soon to be angel
First of all we want to thank everyone for the constant prayers, help and support in this extremely difficult time. Also in honor of sweet Kloe I choose to make our blog pink! (not a color I would ever have for anything).
We wanted to fill everyone in on what's been happening lately. It's been hard for Mark have to explain everything over and over, and for those who know me, know I can hardly talk about anything without getting emotional. So I'm sorry I cannot call and personally talk with a lot of you. I am no writer by any means, but I feel like it's the best way to be able to explain all the things that have been going on in detail, for those who would like to know.
I am currently pregnant with sweet baby Kloe Evelyn, who will be exactly 20wks tomorrow (July 22nd). We have definitely had some complications since early on but none that raised to much of a concern. The early ultrasounds came out great, with no issues concerning baby girl.
Until a couple weeks ago when I started having mild bleeding and we went to the E.R. I was put on some antibiotics for an infection, and then last week when my lab results came in it was determined that I had a urinary tract infection. I immediately started the antibiotics for that and made an apt. to see our doctor to follow up. Then just this last Monday, the 19th, we returned to the E.R. when I started having heavier bleeding. They checked me out, and as far as we knew everything was ok. They did recommend that we push up my doctor's appointment to as soon as we can. Which we now no is because they couldn't really disclose to much info, but I'm sure saw the problem.
Thankfully we were able to see our doctor early yesterday morning. I was fully checked out and he then discovered that there is no amniotic fluid. We were immediately sent to see a specialist for more testing and conformation. Basically yesterday we were told that Kloe is inside at a perfect size with a perfect heart beat not able to survive. This could have been caused by the infection, or for no medical reason at all. All we know is that without amniotic fluid her organs will not develop past this 5 month stage, and will start shutting down one by one in order to stay alive.
We were giving a couple options (which were all such a blur for Mark and I to hear at the time). We were told that as long as she is inside in utero she will most likely stay alive, unless her organs shut down completely before she reaches full term. However even if she reached that point none of her organs would be at all developed and she would never survive on her own. We have decided to release her from the womb and allow her to go to heaven where we will one day get to see her again. Carrying her to term and delivering her stillborn could not only cause quite a few complications for myself, but be VERY difficult emotionally for the three of us knowing that there is a 0% chance of her survival.
This morning we met with our doctor again (who by the way couldn't be a great gift for God in this time!). We needed to discuss our decision and this procedure. Unfortunately however I will have to be induced and fully deliver her like normal. Not that any way is a good way, I just know that this will be extremely difficult. She is to large for any other method. It will be really hard to be in the maternity ward for 2 or 3 days and come out without her in our arms.
This will all be happening next week sometime. We will not have a for sure date until later on Monday.
This has been an extremely hard week for the 3 of us, but we trust God's plan and timing and are finding great comfort in all this. We love our sweet Kloe Evelyn and always will, and she will always be a part of this family and our lives.
I will post something after everything takes place explaining how things wen. Again thank you for prayers, and we would definitely appreciate if you kept them coming, especially in these upcoming weeks.
Love, Mark, Jen, Conner
(and our soon to be angel) Kloe
We wanted to fill everyone in on what's been happening lately. It's been hard for Mark have to explain everything over and over, and for those who know me, know I can hardly talk about anything without getting emotional. So I'm sorry I cannot call and personally talk with a lot of you. I am no writer by any means, but I feel like it's the best way to be able to explain all the things that have been going on in detail, for those who would like to know.
I am currently pregnant with sweet baby Kloe Evelyn, who will be exactly 20wks tomorrow (July 22nd). We have definitely had some complications since early on but none that raised to much of a concern. The early ultrasounds came out great, with no issues concerning baby girl.
Until a couple weeks ago when I started having mild bleeding and we went to the E.R. I was put on some antibiotics for an infection, and then last week when my lab results came in it was determined that I had a urinary tract infection. I immediately started the antibiotics for that and made an apt. to see our doctor to follow up. Then just this last Monday, the 19th, we returned to the E.R. when I started having heavier bleeding. They checked me out, and as far as we knew everything was ok. They did recommend that we push up my doctor's appointment to as soon as we can. Which we now no is because they couldn't really disclose to much info, but I'm sure saw the problem.
Thankfully we were able to see our doctor early yesterday morning. I was fully checked out and he then discovered that there is no amniotic fluid. We were immediately sent to see a specialist for more testing and conformation. Basically yesterday we were told that Kloe is inside at a perfect size with a perfect heart beat not able to survive. This could have been caused by the infection, or for no medical reason at all. All we know is that without amniotic fluid her organs will not develop past this 5 month stage, and will start shutting down one by one in order to stay alive.
We were giving a couple options (which were all such a blur for Mark and I to hear at the time). We were told that as long as she is inside in utero she will most likely stay alive, unless her organs shut down completely before she reaches full term. However even if she reached that point none of her organs would be at all developed and she would never survive on her own. We have decided to release her from the womb and allow her to go to heaven where we will one day get to see her again. Carrying her to term and delivering her stillborn could not only cause quite a few complications for myself, but be VERY difficult emotionally for the three of us knowing that there is a 0% chance of her survival.
This morning we met with our doctor again (who by the way couldn't be a great gift for God in this time!). We needed to discuss our decision and this procedure. Unfortunately however I will have to be induced and fully deliver her like normal. Not that any way is a good way, I just know that this will be extremely difficult. She is to large for any other method. It will be really hard to be in the maternity ward for 2 or 3 days and come out without her in our arms.
This will all be happening next week sometime. We will not have a for sure date until later on Monday.
This has been an extremely hard week for the 3 of us, but we trust God's plan and timing and are finding great comfort in all this. We love our sweet Kloe Evelyn and always will, and she will always be a part of this family and our lives.
I will post something after everything takes place explaining how things wen. Again thank you for prayers, and we would definitely appreciate if you kept them coming, especially in these upcoming weeks.
Love, Mark, Jen, Conner
(and our soon to be angel) Kloe
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